Tuesday, 25 December 2012

Steve Jobs: How to live before you die



At his Stanford University commencement speech, Steve Jobs, CEO and co-founder of Apple and Pixar, urges us to pursue our dreams and see the opportunities in life's setbacks -- including death itself.

Applause.

Thank You.

I am honored to be with you today for your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. Truth be told, I never graduated from college & this is the closest I have ever got into a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life, that’s it, no big deal, just three stories. The first story is about the Connecting the dots, I dropped out of my college after the first six months but then stayed around as a drop in for around 18 months or so before I really quit. So why that I drop out. It started before I born. My biological mother was young under graduate student and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates. So everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except when I popped up they decided at the last minute they really wanted me to grow. So my parents who were in the waiting list got a call in the middle of the night asking we got an unexpected baby boy, do you want him, they said, off course. My biological mother found out later that my mother had never graduated from college and my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would go to college. This was the start in my life. And seventeen years later I did go to college. But I evenly chose a college it was almost as expensive as Stanford and all of my working class parents savings would be spent on my college tuition. After Six months I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and had no idea howhttps://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=6689153711939325423#editor/target=post;postID=4066143545181666300;onPublishedMenu=allposts;onClosedMenu=allposts;postNum=6;src=link college was going to help me to figure it out. And here I spending all the money my parents have saved in their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust it would all work out okay. It was pretty scary at that time. But looking back it was one of the best decision I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking required classes they didn’t interest me and begin dropping in once that looked far more interesting. It wasn’t all romantic I didn’t have a drawn room so slept on floor in my friend’s rooms. I returned coke bottles for the five cent deposits to buy food with. And I would walk 7 miles across the town on every Sunday night to get one good meal in the week at the Hari Krishna Temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into, by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example, reed college of that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Through out the campus, every poster, every label on every drawer was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and sensor of tight phases and about varying the amount space between different letter combinations and about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically settled in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating. None of these had even a hope of a practical application in my life. But ten years later when we were designing the first Mackintosh Computer it all came back to me and we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple type phases or proportionately spaced fonts.  And since windows just copied the Mac its likely no personal computer would have done. (Applause) If I had never dropped out I would have never dropped in that calligraphy class. Personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Off course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college but it was very very clear looking backwards ten years later. Again you can’t  connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust the dots would somehow connecting your future. You have to trust in something your gut, destiny, life, karma whatever. Because believing that dots would connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it lead you off the path. And that would make all the difference.



My second story is about love and loss. I was lucky I found what I loved to do, early in life. Wasn’t I started apple in my parents garage, when I was 20. We worked hard and in ten years apple had grown from just two of us in our garage into a $ 2 billion company with over four thousand employees. We just released our finest creation “The Mackintosh” a year earlier and I turned thirty. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started. Well as Apple grew, we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run a company with me and in the first year or so the things went well. But the runner vision for future begin to diverge. And eventually we had a falling out. When we did our board of directors sided with him. So at thirty I was out and very publically out. With that the focus of my entire adult life was gone and it was devastating. I really didn’t know what to do for few months. I felt that I let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down, I dropped the pathogen that was passed to me. I met with David Packard at Bob Noise and tried to apologies for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure and I even thought of running away from the valley. But something slowly begun to dawn on me. I still loved what I did. I been rejected but I was still in love. So I decided to start over. I didn’t see at then but turned to getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again. Lets sure about everything. It freed be from one of the most creative periods of my life. During the next five years I started a company named next, another company name Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my Wife. Pixar one hand created the first computer animated feature film toy story, and now the most successful animation studio in the world. (Applause) In the remarkable turn of events Apple bought Next, and I returned to Apple and the technology we developed in the Next is at the Heart of Apples current renascence. And we had a wonderful family together. I am pretty sure none of this wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed it.  Sometimes life going to hit you on head with a brick, don’t lose faith. I am convince with only one thing which kept me going that was I loved what I did, you have got to find what you love.  And that is as true as for your work as it is for your lovers.  Your work is going to fill a large part of your life and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is a great work. And the only way to do a great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking and don’t settle. As all matters of your heart you will know when you find it. And like any great relationships its gets better and better as years roll on.  So keep looking, don’t settle.


(Applause)
My third story is about death, when I was seventeen I read a quote something like, “if you live each day as if it was your last someday you are almost certainly be right.” It made an impression on me and since then past 33 years I looked at the mirror every morning and ask myself if today were the last day of my life what I want to do what I am about to do today.  And whenever the answer is been no for too many days in a row I know I need to change something. Remembering that I will be dead soon is the most important tool I have ever encountered to help me make big choices in life. Because almost everything, all external expectations, all pride, fear of embarrassment of failure, these things just fall away in the face of death. Living only what is truly important. Remembering you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to loose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart. About a year ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning. It clearly showed tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was certainly type of cancer which is incurable and I should expect to live no longer then three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order. Which is doctors code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything, you thought you have the next ten years to tell them it was just few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so it would be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say you good bye. I lived with that diagnosis all day.  Later that evening I had a biopsy with a stuck of endoscope on my throat through my stomach into my intestine put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated but my wife who was there told me that when they view the cells under microscope, the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of Pancreatic Cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and thankfully I am fine now.
Applause
This was the closest I have been facing to the death and I hope it’s the closest I get for few more decades. Having lived through it I can now say this to you with bit more certainty that when death was a useful and purely intellectual concept. No one wants to die, even people want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there and yeah death is the destination we all share, no one has ever escaped it. And that is it should be because death is very likely the single best invention of life. Its life change agent. Its clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you. But someday not too long from now you would gradually become old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic but its quite true. Your time is limited so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by the dogma which is living with the results of other peoples thinking. Don’t let the noise of others opinion ground out in your own inner voice. And the most important have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Applause.
Taking few sips of water.


When I was young, there was an amazing publication, called the whole earth catalog. Which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stuart Bryant not far from here at Mellow Park. And he brought it to life with a poetic touch. This was in the late sixties before personal computers and desktop publishing. So it all made with Typewriters scissors and pilloried cameras. It was a sort of Google and paper back form thirty five years before Google came along. It was idealistic, overflowing with great notions. Stuart and team put up several issues of whole earth catalog and then they put out of with the final issue. It was the mid nineteen seventies and I was your age. On back cover of their final issue there was a photograph of an early morning country road. The kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you are so adventures. Beneath it were the words Stay Hungry Stay Foolish. It was their farewell message before they signed off. Stay Hungry Stay Foolish. And I have always wish that for myself. And now and you graduate to begin a new I wish that for you. Stay hungry Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much. 

A well deserving stand up ovation by the students. (verbatim)

Tuesday, 4 December 2012

Lost memories rewinded in mind

Left my last post on 25th Sept. All these days genuinely very busy traveling all around. So couldn't continue to write what has happened in tracking. Would precisely write about all those ten days, so that the continuity remains there in all my posts.

We were placed at Tourista in Pedong. On the first day we woke up early in the morning to track towards RIKISUM. The walk was for around 15 KMs up and 15 KMs back where we were placed.
This place was at around 6000 Ft from Sea level, incredibly beautiful. Probably haven't seen more beautiful place after that. Our trainer or coach who had accompanied us had so nicely explained us lots of things about the place that is why I don't remember anything now. I can only remember that he had shown us Mt. Kanchenjungh. After walking almost 30 Kms that day we returned back to our base. We had our lunch and went asleep. Next day morning nobody remember when we had our dinner and again went to sleep.

Next day morning the most adventures thing had to be done. It was RIVER CROSSING. We did River crossing with full of zeal and excitement on river MUDUNG. One rope was tied up on two trees on the other sides of the river. It was around 30 meters broad. Now you wear a belt and with the help of a hook on your belt you would be hanged on the rope. And when you cross the river using this method oh my god can't explain one must do it to experience. On this day also we walked around 17 to 18 Kms. And in these two days we had become habituated to long walks.

On the third day we changed our base to some other base managed by Tourista only. We were sent to this base by bus I believe or might be again we walked don't remember. On this third day we had been to a place might be croose dana, from here the noise of river like Rangphu and Reshi. I still remember the names of these river. 4th day we took rest and played cricket.

5th day we had again relocated ourselves to a valley kind of place where the jungle was very dense and challenging part was we had to live in a tent. We spent our next three horrible nights in these tents without having electricity. We were asked to carry a torch so now understood the reasons. Now I am recollecting few memories which is bringing smile on my face like fight with Prakash and Azad, the way Amardeep had farted all night inside that tent and made our life hell for at least that night and lot other things.

On 5th day we had been to leech garden, we soaked tobacco leafs in kerosene and applied it on our foot so that we can create resistance against billions and billions of leeches. On 6th Day been to the highest point called rock tower 7,200 Ft above sea level. Full of fog, you can't see person standing 10 meters away from you. The coach was saying us hey guys look there ahead that is Mt. Kanchenjungh, nobody saw anything.

From last two three days we have been only having chicken and chicken and only chicken. Nice very nice very tasty and mouth watering, still mouth waters

On 7th day we had done mount climbing with the help of sophisticated tracking tools like a like axe, special shoes, caravanier hooked on rope etc etc.

On nights we had camp fires, we played antakshari, we did dance cracked lots of jokes and what not. We enjoyed. Somenath was the most wicked kind of guy in the group . Lots of things happened Somnath had applied gel pen's ink on Suman's face and drawn mustaches and beards. Suman was so fair that is why this ink was so visible on his face and it made him look funny too. When Suman woke up in the morning he didn't see his face on mirror and walked all around we laughed.
Somnath had only kept biscuits on Luminas face and made a dog eat those biscuits. After eating them the dog had licked all his face......

Then we had our exams and all we got our certificates. Those days I had one camera and there was a limitation of clicks of 35 photos. Have left with few photographs which are not so clearly visible. But yeah the memories would always be very clear on my mind.

I was only 13 when I did all this with my school friends. Its my gratitude that got that opportunity to be part of that event.

 


Yeah one more thing I am very sure about that I would definitely go there once again to discover myself...